Friday, June 28, 2013

5 Minute Friday - In Between


Five Minute Friday

Here are the rules:
1. Write for 5 minutes flat for pure unedited love of the written word. 2. Link back here and invite others to join in {you can grab the button code in my blog footer}. 3. Go leave some comment props for the five minute artist who linked up before you. -


IN BETWEEN

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In between moments in our busy lives. What to do with that 2 -5 minutes in between tasks? I want hear the quiet. I want to stop moving and clear my focus. I want to say a small prayer for all the little blessings of the day, and the patience to get through the rest of it. I want to turn and see my daughter in the corner of the room, pretending she is in a rocket ship, completely engrossed. I want to breathe in and out so when that in between moment is gone, I am ready for whatever come next. 
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Wednesday, June 26, 2013

What if

Feeling a little melancholy for some reason tonight. I came to terms a long time ago that I would never get to be pregnant, but now and then it creeps up on me. I still wonder what it would have felt like to see the positive sign on the pregnancy test, and come up with some fun creative way to tell my husband and then our family. I wonder what crazy foods I would have craved and what that little beginning baby bump would have looked like. And what must it feel like to actual feel your baby move around inside of you. The first ultrasound and hearing the babies heart beat. FInding out if we were having a boy or a girl, and being giddy with excitement. I know pregnancy isnt all sunshine and flowers, believe me, and I was for sure terrified of the actual delivery, but still....i just wonder.

Please don't misunderstand, I would not change a single detail of my life because I have been so blessed by the adoption of my beautiful daughter. Had I become pregnant, I probably wouldn't have ever considered adoption.

I just wonder...

Monday, June 24, 2013

3rd time is the charm???

Good byes are always hard. I despise them. I think whenever the military is going to separate me from my husband, I dread the good bye the most. Once its over, that clock starts ticking and I can concentrate on waiting for it to be over!

Well, this one as certainly been unique. The wonderfully organized and efficient army (try not to drown in the sarcasm) can't seem to get him on a flight, so for 3 weekends in a row, he has come home. And while I will never turn down a chance to see him, these good byes are killing me. They do not get any easier the second and third time. Its nuts!

Sigh...I'm just trying to enjoy this blessing of extra time, and remember that there is a reason...whatever that may be!

At the same time, I am saying good bye to many wonderful friends who are PCS ing. I'm a hot mess of emotion! Watch out!